As the month of December comes to a close, I think back to the resolutions I have made over the years. I reminisce about the time and place, and the hopes and expectations of a fresh start. Whether my goals included fitness, travel, professional growth, or even a simple attitude adjustment – I was ready and determined to succeed.
This year, however, change is inevitable and my determination is failing. Today, December 31st, marks the end of my husband’s active duty military career. My assumption was that this time would be fulfilling and exciting. What does that say about me? In reality, there is a finality that feels something like an 800 pound gorilla sitting on my chest. And a sadness that I still can’t explain.
In our situation, a job in the civilian world is prompting a mid-year move from Georgia to North Carolina. Much like many of our military moves, decisions were made late in the game, causing a flurry of activity in a fairly short amount of time. Understanding that retirement was getting closer, we bought a house and slowly began digging our roots a little deeper. As we prepare to uproot this time, familiarity mixes with the unknown, sparking new feelings and emotions. Ones we will learn to deal within the New Year.
Military families out there know the drill. New home, new schools, new friends, new sports teams, new church, and new activities all come to be in new surroundings. Being a military family is an identity of sorts, and leaving that behind is new, too. Don’t get me wrong; I don’t feel like we are being banished from Military Family Island, but the lifestyle we knew is soon going to be a thing of the past.
It feels like we are going to plow into 2016 like a high-speed train about to jump its track. I am nervous because this fresh start seems very daunting. So, ready or not, this New Year’s resolution to ‘tackle and embrace NEW’ is almost here. I’d be lying if I said I was ready, but I would also be lying if I said I was not.
Good or bad, here’s to new.
Are you preparing for something new in the new year? How will you tackle it?
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